Dean McDermott revealed he hasn’t seen estranged wife Tori Spelling or their five kids since he entered rehab over five months ago.
During an interview with the Daily Mail published Wednesday, the former “Chopped Canada” host got candid about how his alcohol-fueled rages ruined the pair’s marriage — and his relationship with his kids.
McDermott told the outlet that he hasn’t seen his family since early June when Spelling, 50, and their kids moved out of their rental home due to a mold problem.
Around the same time, the 56-year-old actor posted — and deleted — a divorce announcement while on a bender.
Soon after, the “Beverly Hills, 90210” alum told him he needed to enter treatment and even helped him find the right care center.
Although McDermott spent 40 days in the facility and is now clean, he admitted that he still has a long way to go when it comes to mending things with his family.
“All Tori’s ever done to this day is want me to be happy and healthy and I inflicted a lot of damage and pain on that woman,” he told the Daily Mail.
“I’m taking accountability for that today. And it’s the biggest amend that I’m ever going to have to make.”
McDermott revealed he was “drinking a fifth of tequila” every night along with a “handful of narcos [prescription meds]” while they were still together.
His unpredictable behavior caused lots of tension in the home and his “petrified” kids — Liam, 16, Stella, 15, Hattie, 12, Finn, 11, and Beau, 6 — spent most of the time hiding in other rooms.
“That’s what it led to and that’s what led to the brokenness and to what happened between me and Tori,” he explained. “I couldn’t do it anymore. I couldn’t live that life anymore. I was tired of the anger and the yelling.”
Despite the exes’ rocky relationship, McDermott — who now lives in a sober home with eight other men — recently began texting Spelling about reuniting with his family.
“It’s going to be living the rest of my life making amends because I took something that was really beautiful and I just tore it down year after year, day after day,” he said.
Yet since their split, both McDermott and Spelling have started seeing new people.
While the “Due South” alum has been dating Lily Calo for a few months, Spelling was recently caught kissing advertising CEO Ryan Cramer.
Despite reports suggesting McDermott wasn’t happy about his estranged wife’s new fling, the reality TV star said he has no problem with his ex getting back on the dating scene.
“She’s given [her love] to me for 18 years and I’ve been so hard and brutal on her that I just want her to be loved and happy,” he said. “She deserves it.”
Neither McDermott nor Spelling have filed for divorce.
