Billie Lourd paid tribute to late mom Carrie Fisher with a heartfelt message on the seventh anniversary of her death.
“It has been 7 years since my mom died (but who’s counting?? Me I guess?),” the “American Horror Story” actress began her post shared on Instagram Wednesday alongside a throwback photo of the mother-daughter duo at the beach.
“Grief has infused my life with a sense of appreciation I had never had before. It makes me soak up every moment of joy as if it were my last.”
Lourd shared that she had been crying “tears of joy” on the anniversary of Fisher’s death as she held her 1-year-old daughter.
“I felt my mombys [sic] presence like the warmth of the sun on your skin on a hot summer day,” she wrote.
“The kind of warmth where you unknowingly close your eyes and take a slow breath through your nose and grin. I miss her every day but the cliche is also true – she is with me every day – she infuses my joyful moments with even more joy.”
The 31-year-old actress — who also shares a 3-year-old son with husband Austen Rydell — told her followers that she likes to tell her toddler that Fisher “lives in the stars.”
Lourd explained that while the anniversary of the “Star Wars” legend’s death has brought about a “different iteration” of grief each year, this year she was feeling a mix of both gratitude and grief — which she dubbed “griefull.”
“Sending my love to all my griefers out there. And hoping everyone can feel a little sparkle of griefull among all the feelings grief inevitably brings,” she concluded.
Fisher died in Los Angeles on Dec. 27, 2016, after suffering a massive heart attack and going into a four-day coma. She was 60.
The “When Harry Met Sally” star’s autopsy report showed that she had cocaine, traces of heroin, other opiates and ecstasy in her system at the time of her death.
Lourd told People in 2017 that her mother had “battled drug addiction and mental illness her entire life.”
“She ultimately died of it,” Lourd added. “She was purposefully open in all of her work about the social stigmas surrounding these diseases.”
In May, Lourd spoke out about the messy fallout between her and Carrie’s siblings — Todd, Joely and Tricia Leigh Fisher — after they allegedly tried to cash in on the late star’s death.
“Days after my mom died, her brother and her sister chose to process their grief publicly and capitalize on my mother’s death by doing multiple interviews and selling individual books for a lot of money, with my mom and my grandmother’s deaths as the subject,” the “Scream Queens” star told PvNew at the time.
“I found out they had done this through the press. They never consulted me or considered how this would affect our relationship.”
Lourd further explained that her uncle and aunts’ choices were “very hurtful to me at the most difficult time in my life.”
She added, “I chose to and still choose to deal with her loss in a much different way.”
