YouTuber Jamie Perkins is breaking his silence about the demise of his six-year marriage to model Nikki Thot.
In a lengthy YouTube video posted Tuesday, Perkins detailed the “abuse,” “violence” and infidelity that allegedly took place while the Australian content creators were together.
After their 2012 proposal video went viral, they decided to document their 2013 wedding and deceivingly perfect union for millions of viewers.
Perkins, 40, said he left Thot in 2019 and that their divorce was finalized in March.
“I’ve been quietly struggling for a really, really long time, and I’ve just been in fear, living in fear, living in survival mode, pretty much on autopilot for a really long time just trying to maintain my place as a father in Ava and Zoe’s lives,” the dad of two said, claiming that he’s been diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder, situational depression and severe social anxiety since the split.
Though Perkins admitted that Thot, 33, had a difficult upbringing, he said he did everything he could — physically, emotionally and financially — to keep them afloat as a couple.
Perkins called Thot “controlling,” claiming she “wanted to isolate” him from his loved ones and has been “trying to destroy [his] career.”
“The reason Nikki and I broke up was I discovered she had been unfaithful,” he claimed. “She’d been going behind my back with her ex-boyfriend, and I’d been warned about him being an issue before. … The first year of our marriage, I discovered that she’d been secretly keeping in contact with him.”
Perkins claimed he discovered a plethora of Facebook messages in which Thot’s ex professed his love for her and urged her to leave her husband.
Perkins said that although it “nearly broke” them up, he and Thot were able to “move past it.” He thought he’d “never have to worry about this guy again.”
However, he claimed he eventually “discovered some things” that were “undeniable,” so he made the choice to leave, which allegedly made Thot “furious.”
He then accused her of “telling lies” about him to everyone they know.
“I want to be able to give the girls the best lives that I can, but it’s just constant restrictions. I’m constantly having to give up more and more and more. Nikki just wanted my life to be as hard as possible,” he claimed.
He went on to say he and the girls were recently gifted an all-expense paid trip to Disneyland and that Thot was “upset” he didn’t ask her to join them.
“Obviously, I wasn’t going to bring the person who abuses me on a trip like that,” he told his viewers, later adding that Thot always gave him “a hard time” about getting “old” and turning 40.
“This is the sort of stuff I deal with,” he said. “I’ve dealt with violence as well.”
“She had come to the house and been violent. Punched me multiple times, kicked me, just been horrible. This was in front of the kids, in front of my mom. Things like this have happened throughout our marriage as well. Nikki was like two different people, and that’s what I always struggled with,” he claimed.
“There was a version of her that I felt I didn’t know, and I never knew when that version was gonna come out. And when that version came out, it’d stick around for like a week or so. And that version had a very violent temper. There was anger problems.”
Perkins alleged that Thot “would hit [him] with heavy objects,” claiming he once “had a lump on the back of [his] head from being hit with a heavy object,” which allegedly took place “in front of [his] brother.”
“There were points in our marriage when I was very scared of her. I was walking on eggshells,” he shared.
“I never hit her back, and I thought so low of men who hit women. And I’ll be honest, there was one day where I felt I wanted to hit her back, which was one of the scariest feelings because I never knew that part of me existed.”
Perkins alleged that Thot once “tried to throw a camera in [his] face.”
“And in self-defense, I wanted to hit her. I felt my fists clench, and I just left the house,” he claimed, adding that Thot made him feel “small,” “powerless,” “humiliated” and like he “wasn’t a real man.”
Because he “didn’t feel safe,” Perkins said he installed security cameras in their home and sought an order of protection against Thot, which he said was extremely difficult because it felt like he was “betraying” her.
However, he claimed Thot had “uncontrollable anger” that she just “couldn’t help.”
“I’ve been in survival mode for years. My self-esteem has just completely crumbled. I’ve lost sense of who I am outside of being a father,” he lamented.
Perkins went on to share a video he took in his home, which shows Thot carrying one of their daughters. In the clip, Perkins repeatedly asks Thot to “leave the house,” but she refuses and then appears to smack him in the face in front of his mother, prompting the little girl to cry.
“You guys will never see my kids again, ever,” Thot threatens repeatedly while still carrying the little girl.
“This is what I’ve been putting up with for years — violence,” Perkins says in the background before saying to his mother, “I’m sorry, Mom. Are you OK?” She replies through tears, “No, I’m not OK.”
Thot did not immediately respond to Pvnew’s request for comment.
