Drew Barrymore admits she “cannot wait” for her mom, Jaid Barrymore, to die.
The TV host got candid about her tumultuous childhood with her mother, revealing she’s jealous of friends who have already lost their parents.
“All their moms are gone, and my mom’s not. And I’m like, ‘Well, I don’t have that luxury.’ But I cannot wait,” Drew told New York magazine.
“I don’t want to live in a state where I wish someone to be gone sooner than they’re meant to be so I can grow. I actually want her to be happy and thrive and be healthy. But I have to f–king grow in spite of her being on this planet.”
However, later in the interview, the “ET” actress shared remorse for her harsh comments.
“I dared to say it, and I didn’t feel good,” she said. “I do care. I’ll never not care. I don’t know if I’ve ever known how to fully guard, close off, not feel, build the wall up.”
The “Never Been Kissed” star, 48, has been open in the past about growing up with Jaid, who acted as her manager and took her to Hollywood parties, including Studio 54, as a child.
By 12, Drew had already been to rehab for drugs and alcohol, and at 13 her mom put her in a psychiatric ward in California.
“I think she created a monster, and she didn’t know what to do with the monster,” she told Howard Stern in a 2021 interview.
One year later, when she was just 14 years old, she was emancipated from her parents.
While Drew was able to forgive her father, John David Barrymore, before he died in 2004, she has never fully reconciled with her mom.
However, she tells New York mag she doesn’t “blame” Jaid for the challenges in her life.
“I choose very consciously not to see my life as things that have been done to me,” she said. “I want to see it as the things I did and chose to do. I’m not attracted to people who lay blame on others. I don’t find it sexy.”
The actress — who shares two daughters with ex-husband Will Kopelman — previously shed light on where she and Jaid stand, saying that she “will always support her” in a December interview.
“I can’t turn my back on the person who gave me my life,” she told People. “I can’t do it. It would hurt me so much. I would find it so cruel. But there are times where I’ve realized that our chemistry and behavior will drum up a feeling in me where I have to say, ‘OK, I need a break again.'”
